Daughters Never Grown (Florida. Spring 2007.)

There are only plants today. The mosquitoes were blown away early. Love bugs hold each other in hiding. Dragonflies think themselves into sticks. Even the ants are gone. A lone chameleon bobs on the mango tree, tapping out a prophecy in morse code.

The birds of paradise are fluttering, flapping furiously to keep watch. Their shocking reds and oranges fly like flares heralding the coming of the wind. The grass is shivering, even though it is already May. Frangipani leaves begin to poke their heads out of stiff branches. They are still not convinced the time has come. They expected to be welcomed with showers and lightning — a thunderous cry to expose themselves. But they know they have been waiting too long. The angel’s trumpets have been calling, sending long fluted noted which start green and fresh and explode in screeching upside-down pink. The sounds coax the palms to dance, a primitive hallucination of a trance, a dance to tempt the clouds. Australian pines cry out as they sway, painfully praising the wind that moves them. The bougainvilleas are silent.

The mother mango listens and alone is still. She is weighted by the pregnancy of dozens of offspring, ready to feed. Her tiny flowers quiver and the beat of the shaman lizard plays on. Clouds move more quickly, as if gathering round to hear. The wind becomes more forceful, swaying the mangoes lasciviously. The angel’s trumpets begin to wail; the frangipanis gawk unashamed; the palms quicken to a frenzied dance; birds of paradise hold tightly to their stalks; Australian pines scream “halleluiahs” to the wind.

And just as suddenly it ends. A small patch of silent azure breaks over the tree, baptizing and cooling her. The chameleon hugs the trunk, exhausted by the omens. And slowly, as if gravity is lazy, thousands of white mango flowers drift to the ground. Floating like snow, winking like stars, swirling like Sufis. Hundreds of daughters never grown. Millions of mouths never fed.

Moon on a Lamppost (Florida. Spring 2002.)

We

bathed

in amber

last night

getting stuck

with mosquitoes

under an orange sheen

which made things

not illuminated, but

notdark.

So, surrounded

by a personal 11 pm we sat

under a lampshade of  notdark

and tried to get our feelings

out.

Even sitting back to back,

empty bookends, we held orange

light between us

a sinister glow.

I could see that nothing hid beneath its gleam,

no beady-eyed monsters lurked

in the harvest colored bushes,

but I could also see only shapes,

as if my eyes were taking silent hours

to adjust to the light on Crescent Road.

That tiny orange                              kept me from being

moon on a lamppost                     scared and kept me from seeing

you.

Childhood Landscape (Florida. Winter 2012.)

The landscape holds the deafening density of memory.  The needles of each slash pine burst with the recollection of some childhood experience just on the edge of my mind.  Each oak limb twists in the shape of a person long forgotten, whose name I would only recall if someone reminded me.    It’s as if the trees and Florida air are storing the memories for me.  They are my Giver, coddling reminiscences in case some day I might want them.  I’ve seen them all before.  Every sabal palm, every old oak, every casaurina.  I’ve left pieces of myself in the sap of each tree.  They whisper a promise to hold it, to free me, to lighten my load.  It is only in this way that I am able to travel.  In leaving behind the teenage worries and prepubescent fears, there is room for Thai macaques and Czech bridges.  But they are not lost.  The Spanish moss dangles with the whispers of elementary school friends.  Mistletoe glistens with stolen first kisses.  Pepper trees play melodies I know I’ve heard before.  Even the formations of clouds seem to materialize into shapes that I’ve seen, in the same sunset, over twenty years ago.

Striving to be Struck (Prague. Fall 2005.)

I want to grab ahold of lightning, let it char my hands as it sends phosphorescent energy screamingstreaming from my mouth. I want to vomit the blue bolts, leaving spatters of electrical inspiration on sidewalks and toilet seats. I want to be forced to help ’em power you and me, to light lives with impulsive volts. I want to let it grab ahold of me, twisting spidery tentacles across breasts and back, lifting me with its weight. I want to hold your hand all the while, transporting flashes through you, giving life more real than Shelley’s nightmares.

Cambodia (Cambodia. Spring 2006.)

The clay of the path,the murky water of the rice fields and the skin of the people run a fertile red — not with the horrors of the past, but with the moonflux of the earth.  This land is pregnant. The thick water between rice stalks reflects the open possibility of the sky above.

Pieces of my foot (California. Summer 2004.)

 

 

Pieces of my foot

have been falling off for days

small pieces

–hardening themselves

curling to mimic plastic

they boycott the work I force upon them

taking their chances

that seceding from my body will

allow them a better life

they each leave a younger sister

in their place

–tender sprigs of too new life

who yelp each time they are stepped upon

My foot, you see,

is out of place in shoes.

He is used to feeling

free grass between toes

hugged by cold ground

and these boots, well,

they send the skin on my foot

hiking.

Saturn’s Return (Thailand. Summer 2010.)

Atlas

 

 

Twenty-nine years, six months and four days,

and everything is back where it was.

 

Saturn turns her head just the same

and her rings dangle from fingers

threatening to fall without gravity

onto a new slate of a floor, the same blank slate

they rested on

before you wrote on it.

 

Many moons halt mid-orbit, holding their icy breath and stare.

What choices will you make on this rotation?

 

You’ve completed the circle of time.

The gases around you are all new.

You have asteroids, comets, and stars

any one you choose can be your own.

 

 

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Tamarind Trees (Thailand. Spring 2009.)

The tamarind trees lie in pieces outside my windows, broken by a sense of caution. Their fruit snake away from the branches ashamed and the leaves shrivel brown in the sun’s stare. The blue-crested lizards search for their limbs, but they are now bodies alone. From the checkered balcony even the ants shake their heads, knowing the sun has gone mad. The tendrils of passion vine convulse in the wind, praying for a mango sky. Yellowsweet and orangewet. Only then can the leaves stretch their fingers. Only then can the ants lift their loads. Only then can the tamarinds rest their heads.

Seasons in Prague (Prague. Fall 2006.)

Summer and Winter walked hand-in-hand away from the Old Town Square. The shock of that communion turned leaves red in the face and sent them jumping from the roofs of arboral skyscrapers. The seasons took no notice of the fallen desperation beneath their feet. Time crossed the Vltava. Summer took her clothes off and waded until the water kissed her thighs. ‘Immersion is better than bridges,’ she called to Winter, and Winter had to agree. She left a bustle of ice in her wake and followed Summer and Time across the river. They climbed the broad white vertebrae of Autumn’s back one by one, the north star dangling from Winter’s neck leading the sun in Summer’s hair. At the top, they giggled, amazed and intimidated by the jutting protrusion of Time’s Arrow. Time had already abandoned it, leaving it frozen — not standing straight, but pointed north. Past the north pole to an Alaskan future. Winter raised an eyebrow and moved towards it. Her frosty fingers stroked the Stalinist metal. ‘We need to keep changing,’ Summer called to her, and Winter had to agree. Turning around, they found themselves in a blizzard of skateboards, writhing in the air around them. The fragile pubescent testosterone and the ollie-grinding snowflakes kept the seasons moving. Winter and Summer continued. In a field below, camels and zebras grazed in a Bohemian fall, and they knew that Time had abandoned them. Summer and Winter froze and pointed north.

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